Monday, June 20, 2011

My Struggle With Hyperemesis Gravidarum

Hi everyone!

Many of you know already that I am expecting my third child. I'm so happy about the news, but it's no secret that I'm going through something very trying and difficult. I just want to warn you before you read this post further, that I am not going to spare many details, and some of the things I am going to tell you about are very graphic and personal. I'm serious, I'm writing this because I want you to know how serious Hyperemesis gravidarum is and why I have had to reschedule and cancel many trips this summer that I was so looking forward to.
Most would say that Hyperemesis gravidarum is basically severe morning sickness, which is true but it's so much more than that. You're basically super sick 24/7 for 15 weeks. Imagine having the stomach flu non stop only much worse for 15 weeks+. Even saying that doesn't sum it up well enough. This is my 3rd time having Hyperemesis gravidarum, and of course my family members remember the first time I had it with my son and when they found out i was pregnant a second time they thought I was crazy.
So here is the really gritty part, to help you understand exactly what Hyperemesis gravidarum does to you. There's the nausea which feels like the flu only worse, you're throwing up non stop and can keep nothing down. I'm talking throwing up to the point where all your stomach acid has already been vomited and so you're still trying to throw up and your stomach feels like it's turning inside out which is extremely painful. Then the acid reflux sets in and tears away at your throat, sinus, (yes I said sinus because it comes out of your nose too!) and esophagus. This is rough because then you get severe nose bleeds that drain into your stomach which is not good!
Then of course there's constipation from not having a bowel movement for weeks due to no food staying down. That is really horrible and extremely painful. At times it gets so bad you have to go the doctor where you really suck up your pride in order to get help. They literally have to make it come out for you but I will spare you that detail! Now because you can't keep anything down, you often get high key-tones or blood in your urine which can cause many other complications. When this happens you need immediate IV treatment to hydrate you. You also get severe kidney infections that cause horrible pains in your kidneys and lower back.
Now you're feeling really bad so your doctor starts giving the big dog meds like Zofran which is used for cancer patients to reduce nausea. Only it's not helping much. On top of all of this, you're over salivating, another weird but horrible symptom. You literally produce so much saliva you can't swallow it anymore so you constantly have to spit and by the end of the day if you collected it all you have about a gallon of saliva. Not exaggerating there one bit! It is truly disgusting. As if this is not enough, you also get contractions daily, and though they are not as bad as hard labor contractions, they are very scary and painful. Meanwhile, you cant help but go into a full blown depression.
Think how horrible it is not being able to cook dinner or clean your house. Simple things like checking your email is tough, and going to the store. Your daily routine is squashed and making breakfast and lunch for your children is so hard you break down and cry because you feel like you're a bad mother for feeding them cereal three days in a row. You go days without showering or even brushing your hair.
Finally you get to the near death point and your Doctor subscribes home health care with constant IV and a catheter that pumps Zofran in you 24 hours a day. That takes the edge off but you still miss eating food and changing the catheter site every day hurts and you end up running out of places because your legs have swollen mounds all over that ache for days to the point where you can't walk anymore.
After all that, my next appointment revealed that I lost 30 pounds from my before pregnancy weight. With my son Blake I gave birth 6 weeks early and I didn't even weigh what weighed before I was pregnant. With Brooke I was lucky and I wasn't hospitalized every weekend and I actually gained a little weight. I gave birth to her 7 weeks early. With both pregnancies I went into pre-term labor at 22 weeks and had to stop labor almost every weekend till my water broke. Now I'm going through it all again and I still have 8 weeks before it hopefully lets up.
I'm doing pretty good so far, I've only been hospitalized once, and I feel more prepared so I have been forcing fluids as much as I can and I think I'm keeping down maybe a half cup per day which my Dr. is going to flip about when he finds out but it's the best I can do. I suspect some kidney complications but I will know for sure this week.


This is just a little piece of what I'm experiencing, I wanted to share it because I know that there are some people out there who are confused or upset that I have had to postpone and reschedule events that I had planned for this summer. I am very sorry, and I want you know that I would never back out of any of my obligations if I didn't have good reason. For those who have said hurtful and mean things to me stating it's just morning sickness etc. well all I have to say is, this is my life and my family comes first and only second to God. Nothing anyone can say or do can change that. Yes I know some may think I'm crazy for having a third baby after all I've been through with my pregnancies, but it's worth it to me.
After having Blake, something inside me told me that there was another little soul waiting to be born to me and I knew I had to make that happen. After Brooke was born I heard that little voice again and I just couldn't live with myself if I didn't make it happen. I would spend my whole life feeling like someone was missing. So for however long I get that calling my family will keep growing. I love my children, they are the greatest blessings in my life, and I will not regret having them and I will not let anyone make me feel bad for bringing them into this world.

I want to thank all of my followers for being there for me and understanding and I hope this sheds some light on why I'm MIA a lot. I wish things were different and I had this amazing experience during this pregnancy, but I gotta deal with what I got and it will be all over soon and the end prize will be so wonderful. There are also some family matters I'm dealing with, but out of respect for my family I will keep that private until we have good news to share. Thank you all again so much and please bare with me over the next 8-10 weeks as I am moving slowly and I know some of you will be affected by it.

94 comments:

Haidee said...

Oh my gosh. I am just balling. I know it was bad because I do work at a doctors office but to know ALL your details....

I am so sorry this happens to you. Many many hugs and you will be in my prayers. God is first to me then family because with God all things happen even with family right behind.

I am glad you are getting help and support.

Get well and you are brave to post all your details . Although, you needed not explain BUT I know all to well when some peeps don't understand :(

Take care :) {hugs}

Scrap4Therapy said...

God Bless You. You are in my prayers.

Esdarlin said...

wow marion ..my prayers are with you ..and i have to say your a strong STRONG woman and very commited to your family and life . your a beautiful mommy and wife and have a beautiful family and thats all that matters ... if your friends and fans don't understand then i say they don't have a heart .. gosh i praise you for going thru all that for your blessed unborn .your a brave mommy .... i'll still be in touch and watch your blog .. may god bless you n yours and relieve you of some of this sickness .... huggxxxx to you gurl :-)

M-C said...

I am so sorry you are going through all of this, but understand how important having this baby is to you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. You are a truly wonderful and amazing woman and I am in awe of your strength and commitment. I have been lucky enough to get to know you a little over the last few months and consider myself extremely lucky. Stay strong and remember that there are a lot of us who love and support you and wish you well.

Cynthialoowho♥ said...

Oh Marion, I'm so very sorry for all your pain. Yes a beautiful baby is worth it. I'm so sorry you had to cancel events you were looking forward to. I can't imagine what you are going through and I'm sending my prayers and well wishes to you! Let me know if I can do anything.
♥Prayers♥HUGZ♥Well Wishes♥

kellyjp29 said...

Marion I cant' imagine people putting their needs before your health and if that is the case, may God have mercy on their souls. Jesus says let the little children come to me, not let the crafts come to me. You are a very amazing creator in your art, but you also have the gift of god's little creations and dont' ever squash that. I too have a dream of having another baby someday, but I feel my time is running thin due to my own health issues but that is neither here nor there. I have a beautiful little girl god has blessed me with, I can't imagine putting anything before her, ever! I just pray more of god's blessing on you for healing from this terrible disease, and know that you are loved by those of us who truly appreciate the person you are as a whole, not just Marion the prima designer but Marion the woman, mom, wife, designer and friend. Take care of yourself friend. Much love♥ Kelly Peters (walkelmol on youtube)

alwayscharlie said...

God bless you and your family. Don't let anyone's comments or attitudes get to you. You are doing what is right for you and your family! I pray that this goes by quicker and that you will be blessed with a healthy addition to your life!

Decorables said...

What a battle. Thank you for sharing and educating us on this awful condition. You are right. "Bad morning sickness" doesn't even come within one universe of what you are experiencing. I hope you start to feel better soon and everyone is ok.

48scrappin said...

God Bless you Marion! We will continue to pray for you and yours. I am an L&D nurse and I have seen the horrible effects of Hyperemesis Gravidarum. It is definitely a real condition and one not to be taken lightly. I pray you get to feeling better very soon. Blessings & Hugs~ Violet

Neecie27 said...

I have been a fan since before you were pg with Brooke! I am so sorry you are going through this again, a friend of mine had it too. Not fun at all, but well worth the reward.

Stay strong and just focus on taking care of yourself. That is the most important thing now. We will be here when you are ready to come back. :)

God bless you.
Denise

Ellie said...

Wow Marion, I'm an diagnostic medical sonographer (ultrasound tech) and I learned all about hypermesis gravidum in school. I'm so sorry you have to go through it...you are a very strong woman. I'm pregnant now with my first child and the first trimester was not pleasant and I had nothing compared to you. I wish you the best of luck, lots of rest and many prayers! Hope you feel better soon!

Lisa said...

You are amazing, we are all sending happy thoughts your way and soon you will be over the hard part and then before you know it your beautiful baby will join your family!

((HUGS))

Nancy aka Homesclscrapper said...

So sorry for all you have to go through to bring that special life that God has given you into this world. Hugs and Prayers.

Limor Webber said...

Marion, your strength inspires me, your devotion to your children brings tears of joy and your vulnerability is beautiful. I want you to know how wonderful and caring you show up in this moment, especially going through what you are going through. You did not need to explain because You have always shown integrity and love to every single one of us but I am so glad you did because we can't go through life without sharing the good and the ugly.... it just wouldn't be "us" being authentic. I cannot imagine what your physical and mental body must be going through but your commitment to this beautiful life that you are carrying is creating the strength for you to fight it... it's beautiful. I'm inspired ;)
xoxo
Limor

ClassyDify said...

I am so sorry to hear about all this. I have never heard about this condition until now. No matter what other people say, family and God does come first. I too have had tough times and words by people that have brought me down. Just know that we are all in your corner. Get better soon. I haven't been a follower for long but know that I will be a follower forever. Take care and God Bless!!!!

My name is Toni said...

Marion... thank you for sharing such a tender subject, I know this post will definitely help a woman that is going through similar or the same. I'm sending you a huge armful of hugs and kisses. Get plenty of rest, stay hydrated, and know you are in my prayers. Love you !!!

Maryann said...

Marion,

I am so sorry and my prayers are with you and your family.. you are right you and your family come first and I am sure that alot of the ladies will understand..

a new baby is totally worth it..

Get well..

Danielle said...

Marion please take it one day at a time, I never knew this existed! I don't have any children but I have a nephew and my sister had a hard time after the birth so please take it easy. Cast your cares on him for he cares for you. Amen.
Danielle

Kathy said...

Marion, I can't even begin to imagine what it took for you to type this post. You are an amazing woman to be able to make it through all of this. I'm so sad that you felt it necessary to respond to the nay-sayers and critics. I'm pretty sure that for every one critic, you've got 100 supporters, so try to keep your thoughts in that direction.

I pray that you will get early reprieve from your condition. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Tracy said...

I have never heard of this, thank you for sharing with us all.
I just came to your blog today, from another blog.
So glad I did.
Take care of you....your kids will be fine on a few more bowls of cerial.

rarsberry said...

This all sounds positively awful to deal with, especially for a third time.
I wish you all the best for the coming weeks, and hope they fly by so you can get back to feeling normal and happy again, and enjoy the rest of your pregnancy. :o)
{{{{{Hugs}}}}}

VoicesWithin said...

Marion, I'm so sorry That you have to go through all of that and that You have to explain yourself to us. People should know Life happens, Things don't always go the way we want. You are a Brave, Strong woman and I Wish you all the best in Your Journey. I agree With you, In the end When you hold that baby in Your arms It will be worth it! Please take Care of Yourself, I will keep you in my thoughts!
♥Holly

Scrapfaire said...

Praying for you and your family...it's the best I know to do. God bless.

DeeDee said...

Sending a big understanding hug your way... you are a greaet mom.... :D hope all is better soon.

Sandy Reeves said...

Sending prayers to you and your family. Hoping the time flies by for you. Having a healthy baby will make it all so worth it!

juanita5621 said...

Marion this sounds horrible, i remember being pregnent with my first and i couldn't stop vomitting for days and i couldn't even leave my house cause everything made me vomit. This just sounds 100 times worse, i hope this will pass soon and your will have your little bundle of joy. sending prayers your way and don't worry what some meanies have to say, i'm with you GOD and Family are a priority. Feel well soon.

Esmeralda TwinsMom said...

Lots of tears I dont even know what to say. I am sorry your body is dealing with all of that plus external stresses. However like my little peanut always says when she sees me overlwhelm "Look at the Bright Side" Before you know it it will be over and you will have a beautiful baby to hold and love forever and bring forth the miracle of life!!! God bless you and may give you endurance through this pregnantcy!

**CrEaTiNgWiThAlOhA** said...

{{hugs to you}}may God bless you and your family....

Rhonda V. said...

Blessings to you and your family Marion!!!

The ONLY thing that matters in this world is your sweet babies and your family, first! period.

My prayers are going out for your pregnancy to be healthy and most importantly that God brings your new sweet little baby to you safely.

(((Hugs))) to you!!!

Melissa said...

Marion,
I wish I would have known about this and from someone like you when I went through it. It seemed all so awful for me and the baby that my family steered me to abort. I know all of what you are going through, I too lost 25 lbs. during my first 8 weeks. No one reassured me, so I assumed I was starving my baby. Then they put me on thorazine a nerve medicine and later told me their were birth defect risks. The worst thing was when the doctors, a team of women, told me well this could last like this the entire 9 months. You either want to slit your wrists or give up the baby. There is no way out of it that won't haunt you the rest of your life.
The difference is that you have gone thru it before and survived it and gave birth to two healthy children . You will prevail again. I pray for your continued strength.

Marilyn said...

Marion, may God give you strength! I am so sorry that people have been so unkind. I am blessed to hear the value you give to each of these precious lives that God has given your family. These precious souls are such a blessing.

Karla (KARLAS001 on YouTube) said...

I'm speechless and can't help crying! My heart breaks for you and your family! I'm speechless and I can't imagine going thru this pregnant...I have had the chance to meet you and get to know you and concider you a great friend and my heart hurts for you my beautiful Marion! Love you girlie! Xoxo

Jude said...

OMG GIRL!!!!!!!!
iM GONNA PUT A POSTIVE NOTE ON THIS? LOL, I dont know what it feels like, that you are going through...., BUT.... U are writing about it, and I would NEVER have knowen what U are going through if it wasn"t for this. I figured, U are the best'as at journalling (no I havent spelt it right), because to me Marion, U have given me a true understanding of what a MUM, WIFE, SISTER, and daughter may exsperience, I see it as another beautiful, (not so good for U) chapter to your next journal.
U R Strong sister, thankyou, love you heeps, prayers and LOVE to you and baby.
XX :-)
Jude

erin said...

Hi Marion,
I just met you at Color Connections, and oh my goodness, I am so very sorry you are going through all of this. I will share with you, that I've been pregnant 12 times, and have 2 daughters. With my daughters, I had severe nausea up until 7-8 months with each girl. The nurses had to come in at the end with IVs, but nothing like the levels you are experienceing! And you are so RIGHT...it is worth it every single time!
God bless you!

Learning 2 Save said...

Marion, Please know you're in our thoughts and prayers hun. God will take care of you & your family and that wonderful blessing you have. Many, many, many (((hugs))) to you sweetie, I just can't imagine going through all that but like you, to me it would be very worth it. Bless you sweetie and please take care of yourself.

xoxoxoxoxox (((hugs))) Love Lisa Ruiz

Kat Scrapz said...

Oh My Gosh Marion I am soo sorry you are going through such a tough time. My thoughts and prayers are with you! Hang in there okay? Hugs! Kathleen Cottle

Netrix said...

Marion, I'm so so sorry that you have this awful condition, my heart goes out to you especially when you have 2 other little ones to take care of. I know the end result will be well worth it tho.
I'm sure anyone who is a true Crafter understands 110% that you will need to cancel or reschedule events etc. I've only been crafting a couple of years and am blown away by a hobby where most crafters help each other out so much, giving away tips and trade secrets! Lol but in all walks of life there will be the ones who can't see past their own nose.
It's a shame that you had to Contend with this on top of your illness. :(
I hope you find a little comfort in all the positive posts here and know how much we care, the important bit is that you, the new baby and your family are well- nothing in the world is more important than that.
Crafty hugs from northern Ireland
Jeanette :)

Aloesaloes said...

Oh Marion, I'm sorry you have to go through all of this!
I wish you strenght and then so much happiness when the horrible weeks are over! I know Garrett will be at your side to support you...

Miss you, but I'm looking forward to your 'comeback' :)

Many greetings from the Netherlands,
Loes

Kip said...

I knew someone who had this, years ago and it was terrible and yes, she was hospitalized a lot. I feel so bad for you Marion and give you a lot of credit of going through this for another child. Hugs.

Jen's crafty bits said...

Gentle hugs and positive vibes being sent your way from Wales. Hope your symptoms do not develop to the same severity as it did on your first little angel.
Hugs
Jen Monteiro x

peggylee said...

Oh my dear Marion, congrats on the little one, and oh boy girl my heart goes out to you, I feel for you and will be keeping you in my prayers. A Mothers Love no one just question....You are a blessing to your family and to all of us. You get better and recover! Lots of hugs and wow you are amazing mother.

Praying,
Peggy Lee

jenlynnie said...

Have you tried acupuncture? It helps tremendously with these kind of symptoms. And the needles don't hurt. It helped me through my rough moments during pregnancy.

TerryM said...

I had just about the same symptoms of what you are going through when I had my son 22 yrs ago and they did not know then what it was, they chalked it up to severe morning sickness. I literally thought I was gonna die and that was my last pregnancy. I wouldn't live through that again for anything. I feel greatly for you and kudos to you for giving it another shot. I hope your next 8 weeks go fast so you can enjoy what's left of your pregnancy. Hang in there your almost done.

Jane, at Thepaperaffair said...

I love they way you are thinking, The prize at the END is what counts, just keep seeing that goal. I so understand wanting children and 'the whatever it takes' part too.

I do hope that this will not have a permanment impact on your health however and you do what you need to do.

I am sorry people said bad things to you ... please know that that is their shortcomings and not yours.

scrappy chic said...

Marion I hope I can speak for alot of us saying that however long you are away, when you get back we will still be here and be fans of yours. I hope you take care of yourself and I know what you mean about that calling. Good luck and god bless. I will say a prayer for you.

Jane, at Thepaperaffair said...

I forgot to say that I wish I lived by you and I would love to help you and family in any way I could, I hope you have much support

Tonya Gibbs - Psycho Mom said...

Marion, thank you for this heartfelt blog post. I'm crying my eyes out right now. I just want to sweep in and help you get through this. Never for one minute should you think of yourself as a "Bad" mother. I think you are a model mother. Your kids are probably loving cereal for breakfast every morning. Keep your faith in God, and look to him for strength, he is there during your darkest hour. When you feel you don't have the strength, know that you do through him! As far as the scrappy world is concerned. The ones who love you, will give you support during this time. And the complainers - well they will complain no matter what. I am one who loves you and supports you, and you need to do what is right for Marion and her family right now. Please know that I will be here for you if you need me!

LOVE YOU,
TONYA GIBBS

Dina said...

Marion, you are in my prayers xoxo God bless you and your family !!

Pocono Pam said...

Marion mama! Your health and the health of your child is far more precious than you sharing the 1005th way to apply glimmer mist to canvas. Niot sure if you cancelled your retreat in NYC yet...but I would rather see you healthy and happy than to know you are suffering in any way! So..please do what you have to do to be well physically, mentally and emtionally! XOXOXO Pam

Maria said...

Marion you take good care of your self and your baby. Prayers sent to you and your family

Lili said...

Brave Girls, that is what you are! Everything is goinig to be allright! Much Love to you and your family!

Mary Jane W said...

Hi Marion, I've been watching your videos for quite some time and remember when you were pregnant with Brooke and feeling so ill. I was so glad when you were well again. I'm sorry that you have to go through such a rough time again. I wish you all the best.

Anna said...

Marion - God will be watching over you and soon you will be well. I praise you for your strength and your will to follow what's in your heart. You and your family do come first and for those that have said mean things to you may one day understand or they may not, but that's their own fault.

Life is too short!!!

I will continue to pray for you and your family.

Big hugs to you <3

Stephanie said...

Marion! HOLY SMOKES WOMAN... first, BIG HUGS. What you have to endure for your pregnancies is crazy amazing... and Marion.. what an incredible spirit you are to push through it all for your babies!! ** Your admired, respected and cherished BY your followers** take care .. DON'T WORRY ABOUT BEING MIA. You and yours are TOP PRIORITY!! Now get some rest! WE ALL WANT WHATS BEST FOR YOU AND YOURS! God Bless :)
with a grin, STeff :)

Little Mahnsters said...

Dearest Marion... I so admire the strength you have, knowing of your condition to willing go through this again...Your family is so lucky to have such a great mommy! I am so sorry for the pain and suffering you are going through and pray that your symptoms subside so that you can enjoy your pregnancy and your family. I took a class from you in San Jose and can't believe you could lose 30 pounds! Thank you for sharing your very personal experience...know that you can count on me to send more prayers up for you! God Bless!

donald said...

I will pray for you Marion - I had no idea how awful it could be to be pregnant. I was blessed with one beautiful child and was not able to maintain a pregnancy after that - but I think God had other plans for us - we recently adopted our 2 Foster children and now have a beautiful family of 5 !!

God Bless you and your family!!!

Jeanne Kelly

Sharon L. said...

Was hoping you wouldn't get so sick this time. It is absolutely awful to get through, but you will! And at the end you will have a beautiful baby to hold and love on!! Praying for you!

Denise G said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Your health, baby and children are more important than anything else. AND you know what? The blog world will always be here... we love you too much! So hang in there and thank you for letting us know, I will be praying for you, the baby and the rest of the family.

Tattered Rose said...

Oh my gosh Marion I am so sorry. I feel so sad and happy for you at the same time. I have 4 children and I don't know how I would of made it through if I had to go through what you are dealing with. All I can say is that you are a very strong person. You and your family are in my prayers. Hope you feel better soon. You are a special person and an inspiration to us all.

Your friend,
Christina (tatteredrose)

Nancy said...

Marion.... Im sending you every bit of strength I can! It takes a brave woman to deal with and face what you are going through. The good thing, is that when it is all over, there will be a wonderful bundle of joy for you to love. Shame.. SHAME... on those that are giving you grief! Screw 'em! No other way to say it! FAMILY COMES FIRST... and creating yours is your wish, which should come true! Just remember that the prize at the end of the race, no matter how hard it may seem, is always worth it! I dont think any of us are going anywhere, we will all be here when you are ready! Thanks so much for sharing with us, I know that was hard! Big Hugs!

LUV2SCRAP said...

Marion I love you and will keep you in prayer and I pray that the Lord will help those with tongues of snakes :( Hugs & kisses my sweet friend.

MrsJJB1999 said...

God bless you and your liitle... God will never give you more than you can handle. May you find strenght and peace of mind knowing god is in control and your baby is blessed to enter such wonderful family.

mootseeka said...

Marion you do what you need to do and for goodness sake just forget about all this till you can function. We will be just fine just ignore all the nastiness. I guess rudeness comes easy with words on a screen instead of face to face.

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Stampinator4 said...

Take care of you and yours many blessings and prayers are comming your way. hang in there.

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Sandy said...

I so appreciate all the inspriation you share with all of us...for those who have been unkind...remember this...those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind...a simple thought but a true quote...you and ur wee ones are the most important thing not just right now but always..take care of u...hugs and prayers!

In Memory of Muriel May Clemens said...

Dear Marion..
I hope that you have family and friends that will rally around you and help you with the babies,and be there for you. I can relate to your suffering and being sad over this. I had a very similar time with my youngest son and he was 9 weeks early. In our prayers for you to get plenty of rest and have a healthy baby.

A Creative Journey said...

Marion,
I am SOOOO sorry that you have to go through this-even though I have NO IDEA what you have, are or will be going through-A child is the biggest gift one could ask for and for those that don't understand or have mean things to say-They are narrcisstic and only care about themselves anyway. May this time go by quickly for you and I hope and pray that this will be the least trying of the three pregnancies and you and your beautiful baby are healthy, safe and sound. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

With Much Love & Respect,
Melissa Mueller
acreativejourney@blogspot.com

Scrappin Cheryl said...

Marion - you take care of yourself and don't worry about what ANY of us think! Dr. Seuss said it best when he said - "Those that mind DON'T matter, and those that matter don't mind!" God Bless you! I'll be here very patiently waiting until you are better and are able to come back!! NO WORRIES!!

Liz said...

Your health first and foremost your family
Nothing else really matters
It's unfortunate that people aren't understanding enough to let it be.
Prayers for a healthy baby and your family.

Chantal van de Kant said...

All you have to think of is yourself and your family,and the little baby.
Big hugs.

Scrappin4MyBoys said...

OMG! I hope everything works out... You do keep doing whats best for you and you're family! Don't let anyone make you think otherwise! The outsome will be a precious precious gift!
Keep your head up! And come back whenever your ready to.. all of your true followers will be here regardless of when u come back :)

Lisa Vega said...

Oh Marion, Lots of hugs to you! You are such a strong woman! I will be praying for you and your family, and soon this will be over and you will be enjoying your precious baby.
Take Care,
Hugs, Lisa

Scrap by Rô said...

Oh dear!!! So sorry for you feeling so bad. But I am sure God will give you the necessary strength and this period will end soon. We will be here as usual to support whatever you need. We patiently wait anytime you need to get ok!! We love you so much!
Hugs & Kisses

JJ Sobey said...

Oh my. Wow - and I thought *my* pregnancies were yucky. I can't even begin to imagine. {{{HUGS}}} Someday you will tell this to your children (when they are adults, maybe) and say "See - My first baby gave me such joy that I knew it would be worth it to have more. And it was - and you are all so very worth it."

I hope you have more good days than bad, and that your new treasure will be happy and healthy.

molly said...

OH!! you poor thing... I have been missing you at LWP. I wish you and your family the best during this difficult time and wish you a speedy healthy recovery and happy arrival with your new bundle of joy.

molly said...

OH!! you poor thing... I have been missing you at LWP. I wish you and your family the best during this difficult time and wish you a speedy healthy recovery and happy arrival with your new bundle of joy.

Sular said...

Marion,

I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I have never heard about this type of thing before. You and your family are what is important right now. All the best and I hope you feel better soon.

Amy said...

Ohh I soo know what you are going through, I had the same thing with all 3 of my kids.. I spent 3 months in bed with my last 2 pregancies and my 1st I was sick the whole 8 months and had her a month early because my liver and kidneys were shutting down.. it was sooo scary!! I wish you the best and you will get through it!! You will have a beautiful prize in the end and thats what kept me going too. Hugs~ Amy

joanne said...

im so sorry you get it so bad marion i too get this and i get liver problems from it too. the first time around i was in an out of hospital and the sickness started from 3months till the end and i also get symphysis pubis dysfunction which was alot worse with my son i was bed ridden for the last 3 months as i could not walk so warn out from throwing up but couldn't sleep. but i hope it ease's off soon for you and congratulations

Christina said...

Dear Marion,

Just today I said to myself... "where is Marion" so I went to your blog and I found out! I hope you find comfort in all the out-pouring of love and caring posts here and know that you and your family are in our prayers. You are a very strong woman Marion. I pray you will feel better real soon. Lots of hugs and kisses for the family too!

~Christina B.

"Everlasting God"
by
Chris Tomlin

Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord (repeat)

Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint You won't grow weary

You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles

Larissa Heskett said...

Hello Marion!! BLESSED WISHES SEND YOUR WAY!! =)
(too funny that you told us all you weren't preg.) We knew better!! =) I am so HAPPY for you!! =)I know what you are going through and until someone has been through it they have NO IDEA!! Even some of my family members made fun of me saying I was a whimp!! Then one of them got Preg. 2 years later and went through the same thing!! Lets just say SHE FELT LIKE A BI____!!!! She said she would never make fun of anyone ever again!! So TAKE CARE of your self. FAMLIY IS MORE IMPORTANT!!
I can't wait to see your NEW LITTLE BUNDLE in all of your NEW PROJECTS!! Have a SAFE 8 weeks!! LOL!! To you and your family!!

scrappy gurl said...

This is your Brooklyn, NY follower, and I want you to know, I am praying and rooting for you. I'm proud of your decision. I too was told that I was crazy for having my daughter, and was told that it was better to abort because of a class C medication I was taking, and I didn't... no one understood, but I knew, and Felt, that God wanted me to do it... I'm not religious but faithful in my belief system... I am proud of you and want you to know that your story encourages me even more... with everything you have on your plate makes me even more inspired to do more with my life and my art, hugs from NY, salima smith

alla said...

Marion, I understand you so well! When I was 1 month pregnant I had a very bad stomach infection/ I stayed at the hospital and lost 3 kg in 3 days/ The doctors hinted I should not give birth to my baby but I did. Now I have a wonderful baby girl, 10 months old. Children are themost precious thing in our life! They are worth all the suffering

scrappergirlie said...

Girlie I just got to reading this in full and my heart just breaks for you. I had a good friend in grad school who went through the same thing and it was just horrible. Hang in there as best you can and know that for every cranky person who writes or says something mean, there are a dozen people who love you and wish you the best. Not to mention the 3 people in your house who care about you more than anything and that tiny soul growing inside you that loves you more than you know. Hugs!!

Diane Ridpath said...

Wow Marion! I just now read this post, belatedly, and I am so so sorry for all the misery that you have gone through and are still going through. I apparently live under a rock and have never heard of this condition before. I can only imagine how horrible you must feel. I hope by now you are feeling much better, and if not that you will soon.

God Bless you sweetie. Hugs and prayers coming your way.

Regan said...

First of all, Congratulations Marion on expecting your third baby! That is so super exciting!

I am so sorry to hear that you have to go through so much when you are pregnant. I can't imagine, but you are right... the outcome is a beautiful blessing from God!

It is horrible to think that there are people out there who have nothing better to do than to say hurtful things when they don't have a clue. How dare they turn your exciting news into a big ordeal because they have a problem with it. I know I get irritated when people think that scrapbooking is my life and are upset if I don't answer my emails quick enough. Our families come first!

I hope that you get through all of that soon and congratulations again! Hugs, Regan

Pookie said...

WOW! I never knew it actually had a name...I was 17/18 pregnant with my 1st of 3 daughters and thought that it's not a great pregnancy. You basically described everything that happened to me... I lost so much weight, it was a horrible experience and during delivery which was natural because my heart rate was soaring I was hemorrhaging and had to have an emergency dnc afterwards. Followed by a blood transfusion. My dr never told me this wasn't normal. (my daughter will be 14 on the 21st of July)My last 2 pregnancies were much better and different.
THANK YOU for sharing I would have never know there was actually a name for it. (my dr was not a very good one) You are right it is all worth it in the end..good luck to you and know it is temporary. Can't wait to meet your little one.
pookie
scraptaculardesigns.blogspot.com

Ayelet {Jenny} said...

Before I say anything, congratulations Marion! Hope that week 16 will be here soon for you! When I was pregnant I spent almost the entire pregnancy hospitalised with an IV for the same reason. I had and injection shot into my bottom twice a day and the symptoms did not go until I was in week 21...only then I was aloud to go home with some pills to take on regular bases until they were gone completely. I feel for you dear, there is nothing more precious from holding your little bundle after they are born <3

messymama said...

Oh my goodness Marion...I am just sitting here crying right now remembering in detail my own pregnancy and battle with HG. I'd forgotten some of the details until reading your words reminded me. I was sick for fifteen weeks exactly, hospitalized 11 times, went into a coma when my kidneys shut down and ended up staying in the hospital for 11 days and coming home with a PIC line and around the clock nursing care. I lost fifty pounds and nearly lost my pregnancy as well. My daughter was born at 28 weeks and barely weighed five pounds, although she was perfectly healthy! I still to this day, nine years later, suffer from PTSD from that experience...I had never heard of HG before my pregnancy, and the women who say, "it's just morning sickness" make me so angry I want to shake them!! It's a pregnancy complication that isn't discussed often, so I appreciate your candidness beyond measure. Thank you for your honesty and upfront attitude.

And I can only say that I am so proud of you and in awe that you have been strong enough to go through this not just once, but three times. Honestly, I have been too terrified of the HG to even think of trying again...you are amazing to me!!

For those who are mean and think that this is no big deal, I can only say...I'm sorry for the way that must make you feel and for the ignorance on this subject.

The fact that you are even able to blog, and are strong enough to keep telling yourself you need to try to keep fluids down, says so much about your strength and your determination. You are amazing!

Can't wait to keep haunting your blog and see how things are going. Thank you again for your openness and honesty!

Just a Few Designs said...

Marion, I feel for you and will keep you in my prayers. A child is a wonderful gift from God, so Congratulations! Im sure your kids are loving the cereal! They'll be ok. If there is anything I could do to help let me know.
Warm regards
Elsa

T said...

I know this is an old post but I am currently going through HG. Your description is perfect.